Whats In The NaMe????

Too late or never
scribbling or better
I call his name

may be juss
to have a semi perfect picture

In the world of the mad
or in the place where I am at
I call his name

may be juss
to be happy or simply sad

i don't have any hopes
but I Dream

I wish

I pray

I shout
& I call his name

may be juss bcos

once again i wanted to see him HERE

hey PLZ don get senti aftr reading above lines vo to bas aise hi smthng incomplete...today i m talking about name game..as ppl say whats in the name????

i don know whats in the name...but definitely something.bcos smwhr v love r names..n sply those names which r gvn by r frnds.u know if i talk about names which i got frm my frnds then definitely thats gonna b interesting thng...my frnds had gvn me some vry funny, sweet n weired names.. realy..wel the list goes like this::

NOORE--wow!!this was the 1st name i got frm my frnds.wel its not that much bad bcos its juss the reverse of my nick name in hindi...n my childhood frnds used to call me noore...:):)

CHANDI DEVI---i got goddess's name too..hehe.wel it was gvn by one of my school frnd wen i was in the seventh class..wel i got this name bcos of my vry vry low temper.. :D:D

NANU---don think i became nana or nani ji :P:P...again one of my school frnd,who heared my wrong nick name over phne:(:(. i think i got this name in 9th class..

SHWETU,SHWEET,SHWEETEE,SHWEE--all these funny versions of my name gvn by my four spl school frnds..ie frm my girl's gang in the school :):)

SMILEY--- i got this name frm my school captain

KHUSHI---wel this i got in DU.now u say wen???the vry first day of the collg..i don knw much about that guy who said hey miss khushi plz thoda kam smile..haan...wel he was my classmate but i left the DU vry early that even i was not able to make frnds there...

PALAK---its not spinach plz haan..wel this one is spl bcos it was gvn by my frnds's frnd. definitely now hez also my frnd

Jab V Met (cont..)

wel i went for the Councelling...i wanted to take EC..not bcos i hve the xceptional love for it..it juss that everybody told me that its a evergreen branch,its this n that..so i juss thought lets take this only???

but if i don do nethng stupid then hw would i survive??wel i filled al the choices EC,CS,IT n ya ME too hehe wow!!i filled ME nly in one collg n that to bcos i juss thought may b i'll not get nethng else...heheh but i think vo to last option tha..right???a girl interested in ME engg ???but hw could b wen i m such a big dumboo..i made it my first choice..aftr locking al the options i got the print out of the choices..wel i came dwn n gave the pprs to my father..

oh god!!! i think again i realy cant forget his reaction...he juss said r u crazy????wht hve u done???n i was like wht???wht i did??den he told me about my mistake.but stil i was vry kewl..i said so wht?? this is my last choice papa..they vil give me EC,CS,IT...i hve filed everything n my father was like hitting me..oh god paagle ladki pta bhi hai ki kya kiya hai????

oh shit!!!
wen i realised about my mistake it was vry late.i was vry upset that day.my father juss said u vil definitely get this.aftr al no othr girl vil opt for ME n i was like oh shit ab kya karun???kyu maine ise first choice per set kiya??mera dimaag kabhi kabhi itna kharab kyu ho jata hai??
n as he said i got the ME too :(:(.. now the biggest ques was:

where shld i go MECHANICAL ENGG. OR PHYSICS HONS ?????

i hve to decide something ..n i decided that i'll go for Mechanical engg..i don kno how i am gonna do dis but i'll do..n i hve to do thats it...

i titled al this as JAB V MET bcos this was the most interesting meeting for me....most interesting turn in my lyf.wen ME n ENGINEERING met(wel i alwaz run frm hard work but i don kno y i selected this.definetly that was not the impossible task but that was little bit tough thats it..n nly cos that require mor hard work)wel whatever
finally frm there my scintillating college days started.................

Jab V Met

so finaly m in the mood to write bout my lyf again...wel aftr 12th class like any othr normal student i ws thinking to join DU.i ws not sure about the course but finaly i decided to take physics Honours ....bcos i liked the subject vry much..so i decided to take the admission..i think i realy cant forget that day wen i ws thinking about my coming lyf whr i hve to study physics n physics nly....


wel i was standing in the queue for fee deposition.i suddenly saw some familar face..she ws my school frnd..so i said hi.n v strted talking
V: i am taking chemisrty Honours ...
me:oh!that gud..chemisrty is vy intrstng subject
V: wht about u???
me:me physics Honours ...
V:oh thats g8!!
V: hey u hvn't gvn ne engg xams?????
me:(oh god is she mad??if m standing here that means definetly i hvn't cleared ne :D but finaly i took a long breath n said) ya ya i hve gvn many like IIT,IP,AIEEE,UPTECH..
V: oh oh same here but i hve gvn medical xams too!!u hve the computers na??
me: ya ya
V: so wht about ur rank???
me:(oh! god y shez so much intrsted in my rank.. rank??? wht rank???)i don kno..i think dey hvn't gvn ne rank..
V: no no they alwaz rite rank..it doesn't matter hw bad it is
me: but i don kno my rank..actualy i hvn't seen my result..smbody else told me about it..so
V: oh i c..
me:(thnk god now shez not asking nethng)

wel in btw the conversation i reached to the window i juss deposited the fee...n said bye to her.i ws going back wid my father..suddenly i said papa what was my rank in that xams???n he ws like what???i said i think i hvn't cleared it na thats y dey hve not gvn ne rank.wel he doesn't said nethng he juss dropped me at home.but in the evening wen he came back he gave me the print out of my result...

n i ws like wht is dis????den he told me dis is ur rank...ur uncle told me that u vil easily get whtever branch u want.n i ws like wht???no???but papa said see the ppr...n i ws like whts this???that means i hve cleared it???but i was in doubt.

den i talked to my family frnds daughter whoz already doing the engg frm that place nly.den she said oh oh paagle u hve cleared it.its a vry gud rank.dont think much..juss chk ur centers n den go for Councelling n al????
wel i chkd evrythng on the net..n i came to kno about my al Councelling details..but i was in delima whether i shld go or not??i mean its bttr to contiue wid physics Honours or?..but finaly v went dere..
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"Unforgettable School Days" ----->V

WELL this ws the journey of average student....i called it average bcos of mny reason"s:

i never topped in any of my class..neither i wished.

i came fourth in mor then half of my classes.

i never scored in 80's.i alwaz scored in 70's so.(xcept primary classes)ehheh.

i tasted success n failure both so again the sign of average student.

i alwaz selected easy thngs for me..like computers..nvr gone for bio n al.

i never felt any kind of competition frm anybody (i don kno why may b bocs i ws happy with my average performance ).

i never wished anythng during this tym...remained alwaz aimless...i took evrythng wtevr came to my way..nthg else.

but

yes i njoyd the vry gud tym wid my al frnds.

i alwaz remained in gud buks of my teachers.

i ws full on attitude n high temper....alwaz,even in bad tyms too.

realy i ws tension free,careless grl..

wel whatever the case but stil i realy cant forget my school days..its unforgettable journey for me like ne othr normal student.. realy smbody truely said if u see school n lyf den u realize:

“There is small difference between school and life..In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test.In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson”

"Unforgettable School Days" ------>IV

My fifth step(11th n 12th class)
wel i took science with computers in 11th. average student n science.hehe...vese my mom wanted me to opt for medical but this ws my decision to take computers (bcos one of my frnd told me that computers require less hardwork. n me who alwaz run frm hardwork ws not ready to take bio in any case)

wel here cums d tym wen i tasted d failure for d first tym. ya bit depressed, sad but for the first tym in my lyf " Not silent" this ws d tym which i luvd d most n hate's d most too. bcos its d tym whr i felt vry bad n vry gud at d same tym. i realy learned mny thngs during this tym..i actualy realised d importance of parents (although i knew it but stil) seen d world frm d new perspective. its alwaz easy to support gud thngs but the prsn who supprot u in ur bad tym is the one who realy cares for u
wel as ppl say tough ppl alwaz last so i too survied..i completed my 11th wid lollz of ups n downs.
ya chalo talking bout bad thngs reminds me one vry sweet thng too.i had a big tym fascination for my school captain(plz its not a crush,n nthg else juss a little bit admiration u can say. lemme tel u, my captains grlfrnd ws vry cute...hehe) i ws big tym fan of his sweet voice..for me he ws alwaz Mr.captain n for him i ws alwaz Miss.similey...hehe..v nvr used take each othrs name...hehehe..

wel lets go to 12th or d last class whr again parents keep telling mny thngs "work hard beta you hv to take admission in gud collg" i kno i kno but again m not the prsn who gonna take al this vry seriously.wel my fav subject ws physics which i used to study al the tym...if i realy tel u den this class ws about lozz of senti moments, teachers, frnds wt not.... last practicals, last viva's, last xams, last pre borads evrythng ws for the last tym....realy
here i only enjoyed my last days in school wid ful of masti...without thinking nethng else.. even not for the gud result or boards

wel this ws the biggest learning period for me..here i learned mny thngs of my lyf..hw to take failure's gracefuly,importance of some ppl,imp of talking mor n mor.....etc etc :):):)

"Unforgettable School Days" ------>III

My fourth step(BOARD CLASS)
last tym wid my special class "10th C".
i stil remember i used to sit on the first bench wid my vry gud frnd Miss.P.. i muss say sitting so close to teacher..n stil doing al d masti.passing msgs in chits, writing on buks, making funny faces...i mean wt not..tht ws realy fun
Generally this is d tym wen al parents say "beta kuch pad lo,10th class hai u hv to take this n that stream"...hehe..wel but normaly i used to njoy my sleep instead of studying but ya i too ws worried bout my bad mathematics.

hmm..in this class only i wrote my first vry harsh essay..i stil remember my teacher called me up n said wts al dis dear????these thoughts cant b urs??hw can u think in this way ??? i juss smiled n said mam its not copied frm newhr...hehehe wel in this class i made my first record of studying till zero hrs but not for al pprs juss for science n that too for xam day only..hehe
although i nvr believed in ne kind of competition( now u vil say m lieing but thts true)but stil Mr.R challenged me that he vil score mor mrks den me in hindi(his weekest subject)...but lemme tel u he realy scored one mark mor den me..hehe..trust me wen i cum to kno about this i ws realy vry happy.

ya dis reminds me bout my bad performance...i juss scored 56 mrks in S.ST..(i think nvr in my lyf i scored less den 75 mrks in s.st which i scored in 7th,even not in pre boards)but in boards heheh...this thng destroyed my overall % completely..but who cares atleast not me...but ya my papa..hehhe
hw can i forget i got a nice lecture on d result day...
wtever but it doesnt effected me much as usual..hehe..

"Unforgettable School Days" ----->II(cont...)

wel my 8th class ws vry vry special for me aftr al i came 3rd in this class n bcos of dat papa ws realy vry happy. wel its special bcos of othr reason's too.i scored 33 mrks out of 35 in hindi (n dat too frm d Nivedita mam..i cant 4get d whole incident. this news ws d gift frm her side on my b'day. realy if i luv hindi so much den its juss bcos of her...). n here only i met wid my irritating frnd Mr.R.(if i don mention bout him den this journey would b incomplete. wel one line bout him" u can hate him,u can love him but u cant ignore him" simply..). class monitor ship ws also offered to me , first tym in my lyf i realised dat m vry gud at debates.(realy it ws vry intrstng thng for a silent prsn like me)..hehehe

WEL in 9th class i ws vry vry high on my temper.i ws learning bout the world slowly slowly. in dis class i became actress too( bcos simply i participated in grp drama..hehe) yeaa during this tym i too strtd talking bout affrairs, rlnshps, g/f, b/f.. heheh..earlier i used to b like big dumboo in dis area.. i strtd talking mor n mor but stil my teachers were on the same lines..."shez vry gud grl, gud in studies n vry silent prsn"..heheh but this tym i don agree wid my teachers...n ya my papa..he too "she never takes her studies srsly...i kno her shez juss like that only kitna bhi bola jaye par ye kabhi bhi chnge nhi ho sakti"..hehhe

Again this ws the tym when i ws vry happy n i think nthng ws there which i wanna chnge :):)

"Unforgettable School Days" --->II

My third step(6th to 9th class)
wel this is d tym when i strtd talking little bit..but stil smwhr i ws vry quiet but my temper ws vry high hehe..here i found my 2nd best frnd too(or u can say first best frnd frm school whoz stil my vry gud frnd)..bcos d link ws broken frm d 1st one so..v formed d grp of 5 grls..Miss.N,miss P,miss R,miss K...but tel u d truth whole class ws like frnds nly..v never specially felt dat v vr in grp sorts....wel my grp leader(in d English subject v used to hv such grp leaders) Miss.A ws also used to b my another vry gud frnd( vry beautiful grl of my class)

wel dis ws d tym frm whr d real struggle strts 6th standard n my first poor performance in mathematics.. god i stil remember that ws not vry bad but definitely in comparison to othr subjects it ws bad..n in result of it i got 5th rank in my class..hehheh

wel i promised to papa that i'll improve in 7th class..this tym i too become the grp leader for the english subject,n ya in this class i took social studies in english for d first n d last tym.for d last tym bcos i ws realy not used to studying social studies in english..but stil i scored 75 mrks so i ws vry happy really. wel this tym i improved my rank too..i ws 4rth in my class..ya not so kewl but for me it ws vry gud...:):)
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"Unforgettable School Days" ---->I

My first step(Nursery class)

juss a 4yr old grl who entered in this horrifying world of studies..i studied nursery twice(simply bcos i chnged my school in mid of first nursery.hehe.nthg else) . Today i nly remember that v used to sing n dance on a song "A,B,C.....".but my fav nursery rhyme ws "twinkle twinkle little star" n aftr dat "ringa ringa roses".. wel even today i realy owe my gud hand writing to that school only bcos they used to gv loll of cursive writing buks in homework. n ya there i learned classical dance too..i stil wonder juss a 4 yr old n classical dance...heheh.arey juss a few first steps n abhi bhi vahi aata hai...

My Second step (primary classes)

as i did twice my nursery so no LKJ..UKG for me ...i directly got d admission in first class.n that too without much hard work.i stil remember that test.my teacher simply aksed me to ryt dwn my name....but me..wt u xpect?? definitely mujhe nhi aata tha.Then she said ok ryt BUS..n me "no mam".den she juss asked me to ryt 1,2,3..heheh oh god!finaly i manged to ryt smthng.wtever but i got d admission hehhe..

wel during that tym of 1st to 5th class i used to b vry quiet prsn..i think most of d tym my class teacher(my fav teacher til now Santosh mam) used to say "shez vry disciplined grl,gud in studies,vry vry quiet..."...heheh n generally my father used to say only one thng.."oho she never studies at home".i kno this is not her best..n result of such statements, in al my report cards i used to get "can do better" hehhe...dis ws d only tym in my lyf when i scored in 80's n 90's...aftr that..hehhe...4get it...

wel everything ws gud bout dis tym...i got evrythng here...no tension,lollz of fun,gud marks even in mathematics too,lolz of frnds,teachers love...evrythng :):)

yeahhhh....My poor English

Today is Children day so i juss thought to share dis...Wel frnds today m gonna tel u bout my xceptional love for english....bcos my english is mindblowing trust me.n even u also can figure out vry easily bcos u can find 100s of gramatical mistakes on my blog.yeah but i hardly care.its my blog so i can rite even in french or german also...but rite now m telling u about my some funny xperience wid it..

PULL or PUSH
heheh..sounding funny even frm d title..push or pull..plz m not plaining ne game here..this incident is bout wen i ws in 6th class...so chhhoti si na..i knw i knw..wel u knw dere ws a chapter in science dats related to MOTION.so dat ws d 1st day of dat chp...my teacher juss called me up n said dear push d chair(actualy she ws trying to xplain d relation btw motion n force).n me such a big dumboo who ws so much confused btw pull n push juss strtd pulling d chair..hehhe...n evrbody strts laughing in d class...dat ws so embarassing..realy

Awesome
wel now u say wts related to dis word...wel ppl vil not belive dere ws a tym wen i realy don knw hw to spel it correctly..i alwaz asumed dat it spels like "osam".n even i nvr tried to chk dis into d dictionary.but wen i cum to knw bout da speling of dis word i ws like shit i m realy a big tym fool....i seriously don knw nethng...

Tc
ya ya now u vil say its take care...i too knw dis..but u knw till my 1st sem i realy had no idea about it..i mean once wt realy happnd....i got a msg frm my frnd n in d end "tc" ws written dere.wen i read d msg.i ws confused.tc means wt??.i mean surely its a short form of sm word but kiska??so i tried al my intelligence.but i ws not able to guessd it.n i ws in such a bad mood...i ws busy in thinking,wt he think of himself ?? hw dared he to write al dis nonsense?? hehhehe..srsly but later on wen i cum to knw bout d ful form....i ws laughing like a mad prsn...

so frnds now u kwn hw gud m in english so plz spare me for my bad english on my blog...

I admire !

If i talk bout indian cricket team den definetly without a second thought i will take Sourav ganguly n Rahul dravid's name.....bcos i realy admire them lol n that to for different reasons..smtyms ppl affect ur lyf n smtyms u wanted to b like smone.even smtyms u juss adore ppl without any reason,may b bcos ur heart says...u see smthng gud or bad in dem....


wel rite now m talking bout sourav ganguly.what shld i say.i think hez beyond words.wel kwn for his fighting skills which i completely adore.when he announced that he would retire after the four-Test series against Australia.my first reaction was y hez going??? but aftr smtym i realy felt that its a gud decision.rite now hez playing his last series.
i hope he will end his career in a terrific way by scoring a couple of good knocks.i juss wanna wish him lol of luck for his future.n a final gud bye from al his fan's side. Three cheers for him!!!!

i think any prsn can take lol of inspiration frm his lyf..n y i like him so much??wel if i realy tel the truth den ganguly n me share a same success n failure graph.. although m juss n ordinary gal n hez an ex indian captain...so dere is no comparison....n even i cant think of dat..but i too tasted d success n failure in a vry similar fashion...dat bad phase of my lyf realy taught me a big lesson.. the journey frm failure to success realy gvn me lozz of strength.. i was alwaz a tough prsn but dat realy made me hard stone frm inside.

i nvr allowed any one to understand al dis..n even i don want dat any body try to do dat also.i think smwhr al dese things help you see the clear picture of urself,othrs n situation.now if ever my sister ask hw u did it??? i hve never seen u crying??? hw u hve taken al dis?? n i juss say even i don knw dear bcos as ppl say u only cum to knw about ur strength wen u don left wid ne option n being strong is ur only option.i realy learned during such time its important to forget past mistakes.forget failures.forget about everything except wt you're going to do now. i think v r responsible for wt v r & wtever v wish ourself to b,v hve the power to make ourself. evrybody say wtever v wish to b in the future,can b produced by r own present actions so we shld to knw how to "ACT"

i realy love few line about failure..
failure doesn't mean u r a failure...it does mean u haven't succeded yet
failure doesn't mean u hve accomplished nethng...
it does mean u hve learned smthng
failure doesn't mean u shld gv up... it does mean u try harder
yes dats true i fear frm mny thngs in lyf but now i don hve any fear frm faliure's.may b bcos now i knw hw to handle it. now its not new for me.now i knw smtyms right thngs go wrong.n we are the only ones who can bring chnges again.so its juss a part of lyf..
i believe in one thing...
"The only time you don't fail is the last time you try anything'
and trust me it works

Ankahee !!!!!

Eggytarian to vegetarian

one day me n my frns were hving d lunch in school. suddenly one f my frnd whispered in my ear hide ur lunch dear bcos mis.x vil eat al ur omelette n bread..before i react on dis,mis.x heared evrythng n v al start laughing but she realy felt vry bad smwhr.aftr d lunch she said now i nvr eat egg in future n i mean it....i ws shockd.i tried to xplain her dat,v al were juss joking..nthg ws against u...but she ws not ready to listen nethng..aftr dat v remain frnds but she kept her words..i think her decision effected me lozz.later on i too ws not able to eat it.bcos i ws not able to 4get dat incident so finaly i too hv to gv up...n i too become pure vegetarian frm eggytarian..
its realy vry imp to think b4 u speak bcos u nvr knw wen u may hurt othr prsn n hw much it vil effect him..d incident ws small,chnge ws small too but a lesson ws big

Silence in frnshp

This is bout my 1st sem...5 completely different gals became frnds(including me)but dat frnshp doesn't last for long...not bcos v were not able to gel properly...but bcos sub grouping started among us n dat thng distroyed evrythng.i don knw i ws realy hurt smwhr or not???i think it ws neither miss.h's fault nor mine bcos she ws vry clear,wat she want n i think i ws too not ready to chnge myself..v nvr talkd bout dis wid each othr..v juss simply chngd r routes.although v r stil frnds but iz dat d same relation v share ????i don think so???n i knw in future too v r not going to do dis..
but i realy learned dat frndshp z not a piece f cake so dat u can share dis wid many ppl at d same time..its bout sharing d whole spl cake wid many ppl so dat dey al feel dat u hvnt divided it

Cracked cup

One day few guest came to our house.wel v al get busy in chatting n laughing.my sister served d tea..dere ws so much noise but suddenly a voice came "there is a crack in my cup" n suddenly everybody ws quiet..den my mom said chnge d cup..i don say it ws my sister's fault even not dat guest's,bcos my sister doesn't notice it n dat guest noticed it vry wel...its a human nature...wel aftr 2 mins everythng ws normal

but dat incident taught me a big lesson " nvr gv a single chance to othrs so dat dey point u at ne point f ur lyf,even not for small thngs too"