Aimless...realy???

I don knw y m writing al dis today..may b bcos smwhr I wanna take it out..as v say generally Reality seems to b blurred wen v don see ourself through r eyes.That’s what happens if v live r entire life through other people’s viewpoint.v spend d days and nights doing thngs right.most of d time v r busy answering many ques..
where do i want to end up?

will i have the job that makes me happy?

will i be able to label myself successful?

are they really proud of me?

am i enough to make him happy?

u knw wen v don left wid any ans,v juss try to avoid questions.v silence the soul too.But what bout inside? Are v proud of who v are? Do v like what v see inside? What is inside us? Who is the real v?

Again mny questions..wel if i talk bout any gal den its her duty to b her parent's reflection,b her in-laws reflection,b her husband's reflection..i think i too try to do smthng like dis..if I talk bout myself den m also not an xception.I don hve ne complaints on living lyf acc to sm1 else’s point of view…i realy appreciate whatever I hv got…watevr ws decided for me was realy gud n watever i got was mor den wt I deserved.

but but smwhr I feel I nvr livd my dreams..n dat's not any1 else’s fault..its mine again bcos I nvr dreamed nethng as such.. i knw dis truth also..but stil at times i ask some ques..
So wat is realy gud ?? wat bout dat vich I nvr dreamed??vich I nvr lived??y i did so??y m like dis?? its my laziness??its my ignorance??or its dat i seriously don knw wat i wanna do??

i don knw what i am talking right now...its juss a thought...or u can say few question on me.