7th.....

wel afer a long time..i am again on my blog..why that i dont kno..u can say today i got some time to write again....:-)
what is good.... to forget something or to not?
forgive the thing or not?
what if we try hard to forget n forgive the thing..but stil..
7th i dont know whats wrong with this date....why i dont like it..or u can say somewhere i kno the reson too also..i think i am just not ready to accept it..why the hell that thing is bothering me too much..why?
evrything is fine then why i am giving so much importance to it...
7th dec 2009..i really cant forget it..n now its again 7th may 2010 i cant forget...
yesterday i just cried after a very long time...:(..(somewhere i want this to happen with me from 7th dec 09 but finaly yesterday things worked for me..)
sometimes life plays with u in such a manner that even if u try ur best u cant do anything
i just dont know what should i say..i was wrong that time ..or i am wrong right now..whatever be the thing but yes something is there for which i cant forgive myself..:(
i got struck somewhere...n that thing is killing me...i just wanna come out of it..trying my level best but still....:(

...from where you left me..

i started new journey from where you left me
renewal became my part of life
every mintue,every second
but till now,i am still trying to move from where you left me


its not about your departure
its not about my sadness
its not about your presence
its not about my feelings
its juss that i am still trying to move from where you left me


i don't know why i am struggling so much
i don't know why i am cribling so much
i know somewhere you are there
i know now you are not here
i know somewhere i am still trying to move from where you left me


my perception doesn't matter here
my aspiration doesn't bother here
although i altered everything,
but my concentration doesn't gather here
till now,i am still trying to move from where you left me



there must be a reason?
there must be a season
there must be a duration
there must be situtaion
where ??
all this will go away from my life
but whatever be the future now.
i just know.....i am still trying to move from where you left me

Silence of Life

silence of life..juss like u quietly accept everything whatever comes to you..YOU SMILE , YOU CRY..
it doesn't matter to you whats realy going on..its juss tht you r smiling bcos you smwhr ignoring some serious thng..n you r crying bcos smwhr u kno u can't avoid it.i don kno why we think so much???everytime i try to keep my cool..but still
i don kno things realy goes out of my hand..wenever i start thinking it is the thing..this is the way. like this i have to do it...this will happen ..that will happen..but suddenly everything get changed.In the end i alwaz get some different picture.i think may be bcos i analyze so much.or i don kno.wel whatever be the things..........

few things in life never changes..i can run from them but i can't ignore them.wenever i got this feeling i start analyzing it with more concentration..n again get into trouble...

the most intrstng thing is tht its not tht i am vry serious prsn..its bcos i am the most careless prsn..who hardly cares about the thngs..wel i kno whatever i am writing today will not make sense to anybody..newaz lets not continue this mor..odrwise i don kno what i start writing..

:):):) Finaly Crossed 50 mark

So finaly i crossed the mark of 50th post..:):):)

This is my 51st post on this blog...so i am quiet happy about this bcos i nvr thought i'll be able to do it...i nvr thought i can write so much.well whatever be the thng..i was able to write so many thngs..not only that i was able to analyize all the thngs in details..i also got feedback from different ppl i.e positive or negative both..mostly positive ones bcos all the reader were vry sweet to me so they only gave there positive feedbacks...
wel i realy enjoyed this..writing n xpressing thngs..meanwhile i learned many things also..even i read many ppl's vry good blogs :):)

lets c how long i can continue this thng.wel again i am saying this i'll try my level best...bcos somewhere i kno i am not a very gud writer(still in the learning process )

Confidence :(:( :):)

when somebody put his/her confidence on you..what exactly you feel?????
somewhere good because that person is keeping so much faith on you...but with me this is not the case..i realy get scared when this happens.:(:(

And the reason is also vry simple because when somebody puts his/her faith you have to ful fill those responsibilites what he/she thinks that you can do...
now days i am facing this problem ....my manger realy thinks that i can do this or that..i don kno why he is keeping so much faith on me..but somewhere i kno i realy can't afford this bcos if i am not able to deliver what he is expecting from me then i will realy feel bad...
and somewhere i don wanna do that..i don waana break that faith and at the same time i don wanna break my faith on myself too....but the biggest prblm is that i don have any confidence on myself...i am realy afraid what gonna happen...even i don kno...

who will win???my nervousness or his faith....i don kno..:O:O

PLZZZZZZ....leave me alone

Normally wen v r sad,smwhr depressed..v start avoiding everything & everyone...n if nebody ask ne thng v simply say PLZZZ....LEAVE ME ALONE...i don wanna talk..i don need ur help..plz
juss LEAVE ME ALONE..but did u ever said this wen u r in happy mood..i mean wen everything is correct in ur lyf...u hve everything which is related to ur happiness..

yes sometime it happens...but now the ques cums y so???
and the ans is also vry simple...smtym even u can't complain about ur present situation..bcos u got everything gud..u hve everything what others think,is necessary for happiness..but this happiness is nthg for u bcos u don hve that one thng which is most imp for u...

that one thng is everything for u...may b that is nthg for othrs but for u that is everything...
its really bcums tough to smile in such situation's..neither u can say that u r not happy nor u can say that u r sad..n that's the time wen u start seeking for loneliness..

really it bcum vry difficult to fight wid that loneliness
bcos neither it declares herself winner nor she defeats u completely
that time you juss toggle in between the two extremities

I LIKE U

Yes I LIKE U..oh oh plz this line is not for ne one here.but yes today m talking about this only.trust me its vry imp..n quiet funny too.ok tel me how many times u said this???
i mean how many times u simply used this line????
I LIKE U???? ting tong...:):):)


now u al say of course many times.whats so big about this??..actually frnds m confused wid the meaning of this line..i mean now u'll say itna bhi nhi pta mujhe i like u ka kya matlab hai...haan nhi pta nhi pta..
n u kno y????

bcos according to me it has many meanings..like

It simply tels that someone likes u(bas baat khatam aur kuch nhi)

n smtym it tels u that u r vry gud..n someone likes u..i mean not only as frnd..smwhr mor then that..u kno.(seedhi si baat ka ek aur matlab)

n even smtyms it bcums the replacement of three magical words i.e i luv u(bas i like u bol do aur kam khatam)

oh god so much of drama associated wid this single line.....
this ambiguous line really helps in mny matters..wid the help of this line u can say evrythng..u can please ur listener,u can show ur affection,u can use it for ur benefit n many mor...hehhe bcos LIKE word does not ask for the intensity of it...n that is really g8

i kno once again i cum up wid a silly thought but ab mein kya kar sakti hun... :):)

Interesting........

"v normally live wid r two images..one which others kno n second which v kno.wel i alwaz loved my second image mor but stil i try so hard to hide it"
Interesting!!!!!!!!!!

"generally i complain that i alwaz do my best for others but stil others don't understand..if realy thats true then frm where al misunderstandings cum"
Interesting!!!!!!!!!

"i don't argue lozz but stil i love to say evrythng..thn hw cum there is so much silence around me..i don kno??"
Interesting!!!!!!!!

"i admire failure n success both..but i don kno what i like mor??
Interesting!!!!!!!

"i don't know i love u mor or i hate u mor"..i don kno y i love this line so much
Interesting!!!!!!!!!

Whats In The NaMe????

Too late or never
scribbling or better
I call his name

may be juss
to have a semi perfect picture

In the world of the mad
or in the place where I am at
I call his name

may be juss
to be happy or simply sad

i don't have any hopes
but I Dream

I wish

I pray

I shout
& I call his name

may be juss bcos

once again i wanted to see him HERE

hey PLZ don get senti aftr reading above lines vo to bas aise hi smthng incomplete...today i m talking about name game..as ppl say whats in the name????

i don know whats in the name...but definitely something.bcos smwhr v love r names..n sply those names which r gvn by r frnds.u know if i talk about names which i got frm my frnds then definitely thats gonna b interesting thng...my frnds had gvn me some vry funny, sweet n weired names.. realy..wel the list goes like this::

NOORE--wow!!this was the 1st name i got frm my frnds.wel its not that much bad bcos its juss the reverse of my nick name in hindi...n my childhood frnds used to call me noore...:):)

CHANDI DEVI---i got goddess's name too..hehe.wel it was gvn by one of my school frnd wen i was in the seventh class..wel i got this name bcos of my vry vry low temper.. :D:D

NANU---don think i became nana or nani ji :P:P...again one of my school frnd,who heared my wrong nick name over phne:(:(. i think i got this name in 9th class..

SHWETU,SHWEET,SHWEETEE,SHWEE--all these funny versions of my name gvn by my four spl school frnds..ie frm my girl's gang in the school :):)

SMILEY--- i got this name frm my school captain

KHUSHI---wel this i got in DU.now u say wen???the vry first day of the collg..i don knw much about that guy who said hey miss khushi plz thoda kam smile..haan...wel he was my classmate but i left the DU vry early that even i was not able to make frnds there...

PALAK---its not spinach plz haan..wel this one is spl bcos it was gvn by my frnds's frnd. definitely now hez also my frnd

Anonymous

"Anonymous"....this interesting word is very famous on Internet. there is a kind of curiosity, suspense, mystery, drama associated with it..u knw it has all the elements of full 3 hrs movie.wel if i realy tel u then i realy hate anonymous ppl..realy :0.

i mean y don they come in front n say whatever they like.this ques alwaz irritate me..

is it gud to b anonymous or not????

i mean sometimes its gud..even u can put ur thots without disclosing ur identity..even u can say nethng whatever u like without taking tension about what othrs wil feel...

but its bad too yar..y ppl scared frm telling there real identity...???y not ppl say whatever they feel without caring about othrs...i don knw but i don understand this anonymous concept... :o

but i luv anonymous thoughts,quotes,comments.may b bcos they r vry true..vry real..i don knw how but anonymous ppl actually speak the truth..:o

like i realy liked this anonymous thought which i read somewhere:

We have taller buildings, but shorter tempers.

Wider freeways, but more narrow viewpoints.

We spend more, but we have less.

We buy more, but enjoy less.

We have Degrees, but less common sense.

More knowledge, but less judgement.

More experts, but more problems.

More medicine, but less wellness.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced lives values.

We talk too much, but listen less often.

We have learned how to make a living, but not a life.

We have added years to life, but not life to years.

We have been all the way to the moon and back, but we hardly know our neighbours.

We have conquered outer space, but not inner space.

We have split the atom, but not our prejudice.

We have higher incomes, but lower morals.

We have become long on quantity, but short on quality.

These are the times of tall men, and short shadowy character.

Times of steep profits, and shallow relationships.

These are times of delicate world peace, and domestic warfare.

Times of more leisure, but less fun.

More kinds of food, but more hungry people.

The days of two incomes, but more divorce.

Days of fancier houses, but more broken homes.

It is a time when there is much in the showroom window, but very little in the storeroom.
And All Of This Was Created By Thought Perhaps

It Is Time To Change The Way We Think!

Long Absence

"Absence makes the heart grow fonder"

I don't have a good excuse for such a long absence frm my blog...I could say I got sidetracked, or had too much work...but that wouldn't be true.I just switched off for a while,I guess:)

wel whatever the reason be but it gave me another ques..hehe
n the ques is on "LONG ABSENCE" ting tong
long absence of prsn,thngs,goals,relationships,successs etc etc...i mean what not??i don knw i like it or not???? i mean i cant clearly give my statment on it..bcos smwhr as ppl say
"Absence makes the heart grow fonder. Prolonged absence makes the heart forget"
whatever...i juss knw that v feel vry different when something is not there..realy.v juss start missing that thng.that thng becomes most imp for us.very intrstng is all this..TRUST ME..
feel the absence of nethng in ur lyf n u vil come to knw about evrythng..
as today when i came here i realy felt vry gud..as if i got smthng which i was wanted frm a long time..i don knw y this feeling came to me..oh oh let it be whatever may be the reason..but thats gud :):):) after all now days my blog is my very gud frnd so its gud....what u say???

HaPpY NeW YeAr :):):)

There are so many words
wanting to come together
To talk about no body else
But about me, myself

but i am not in the mood

i am seeing the bigger picture.

Soon, yet another year

is about to begin, as

another will end.

Whether I like it or not

its the beginning of yet another story

I don know what lies ahead

but i try to define

some sort of better me

i have to be a ruler

i have to rise again

i have to do my part very well

well right now

lemme acknowledge where I have been

lemme close the old paper's

lemme welcome the new chapter

& lemme wish everybody & myself too

with smiling face & loads of love

a very very

HaPpY & PrOsPeRoUs NeW YeAr 2009!!!!!!!

I Admire!!!!!!!!

"Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi"

At the time when women were considered the weaker sex, she rose up with such great power that Britishers feared her very name.The woman of self-respect and self-confidence is none other then the martyr Rani Lakshmi Bai. She is well known as Jhansi ki Rani. Rani Lakshmibai was one of the leading warriors of the India's first struggle of independence. She is a symbol of bravery, patriotism and honor.

WE realy cant forget her..atleast not me..i am her big admirer

BEFORE THIS YEAR END I WANTED TO SING THIS SONGWHICH I AM SINGING FROM MY CHILDHOOD..I THINK I WANTED TO WELCOME THE NEW YEAR IN THIS MOOD ONLY ::

"Sinhasan hil uthey raajvanshon ney bhrukuti tani thi,budhey Bharat mein aayee phir se nayi jawani thi,gumee huee azadi ki keemat sabney pehchani thi, door phirangi ko karney ki sab ney man mein thani thi.Chamak uthi san sattavan mein, yeh talwar purani thi,Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi"

Kanpur key Nana ki muhn boli bahen chhaveeli thi,

Lakshmibai naam, pita ki woh santaan akeli thi,

Nana key sangh padhti thi woh Nana key sangh kheli thi

barchhi, dhal, kripan, katari, uski yehi saheli thi.

Veer Shivaji ki gaathaayen uski yaad zabani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Lakshmi thi ya Durga thi woh swayan veerta ki avatar,

dekh Marathey pulkit hotey uski talwaron key vaar,

nakli yudh-vyuh ki rachna aur khelna khub shikar,

sainya gherna, durg todna yeh they uskey preeya khilwad.

Maharashtra-kul-devi uski bhi aaradhya Bhavani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Huee veerta ki vaibhav key saath sagai Jhansi mein,

byah hua ban aayee Rani Lakshmi bai Jhansi mein,

rajmahal mein baji badhai khushiyan chhaee Jhansi mein,

sughat Bundelon ki viroodaavalee-si woh aayee Jhansi mein.

Chitra ney Arjun ko paya, Shiv sey mili Bhavani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

Udit hua saubhagya, mudit mahalon mein ujiyali chhayee,

kintu kaalgati chupkey-chupkey kali ghata gher laayee,

teer chalaaney vaaley kar mein usey choodiyan kab bhaayee,

Rani vidhva huee hai, vidhi ko bhi nahin dayaa aayee.

Nisantan marey Rajaji, Rani shok-samani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Bujha deep Jhansi ka tab Dalhousie man mein harshaaya,

Raajya hadap karney ka yeh usney achhaa avsar paaya,

fauran fauj bhej durg par apna jhandaa phehraya,

lawaris ka waris bankar British Raj Jhansi aaya.

Ashrupurna Rani ney dekha Jhansi huee birani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

Anunay vinay nahin sunti hai, vikat shaasakonki maaya,

vyapari ban daya chhahta tha jab wah Bharat aaya,

Dalhousie ney pair pasaarey, ab to palat gayee kaaya

Rajaon Nawwabon ko bhi usney pairon thukraaya.

Rani daasi bani, bani yeh daasi ab Maharani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Chheenee rajdhani Dilli ki, Lucknow chheena baaton-baat,

Qaid Peshwa tha Bithur mein, hua Nagpur ka bhi ghaat,

Udaipur, Tanjore, Satara, Karnatak ki kaun bisaat?

jabki Sindh, Punjab Brahm par abhi hua that vajra-nipaat.

Bengaaley, Madras aadi ki bhi to vahi kahani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

Rani royee rinvason mein, Begum gum se thi bezaar,

unkey gehney kapdey biktey they Calcutta key bazzar,

sarey aam nilaam chhaptey they angrezon key akhbar,

"Nagpur key zewar le lo, Lucknow key lo naulakh haar".

Yon pardey ki izzat pardesi key hath bikani thi

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Kutiya mein bhi visham vedna, mahalon mein aahat apmaan,

veer sainikon key man mein tha apney purkhon ka abhmaan,

Nana Ghunghupant Peshwa joota raha tha sab saamaan,

bahen chhaveeli ney Ran-Chandi ka kar diya prakat aahvaan.

Hua yagna prarambh unhey to soyee jyoti jagani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

Mahalon ney di aag, jhonpdi ney jwala sulgayee thi,

yeh swatantrata ki chingari antratam sey aayee thi,

Jhansi cheti, Dilli cheti, Lucknow laptey chhayi thi,

Merat, Kanpur, Patna ney bhari dhoom machayi thi,

Jabalpur, Kolhapur, mein bhi kuchh hulchul uksani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Is Swatantrata Mahayagna mein kayee veervar aaye kaam,

Nana Ghunghupant, Tantya, chatur Azeemullah sarnam,

Ahmedshah Moulvi, hakur Kunwar Singh, Sainik Abhiram,

Bharat key itihaas gagan mein amar rahengey jinkey naam.

Lekin aaj jurm kehlati unki jo Qurbani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

Inki gaatha chhod, chaley hum Jhansi key maidanon mein,

Jahan khadi hai Lakshmibai mard bani mardanon mein,

Lieutenant Walker aa pohoncha, aagey bada jawanon mein,

Rani ney talwaar kheench li, hua dhandh asmanon mein.

Zakhmi hokar Walker bhaga, usey ajab hairani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Rani badhi Kalpi aayee, kar sau meel nirantar paar,

ghoda thak kar gira bhoomi par, gaya swarg tatkaal sidhaar,

Yamuna tat par angrezon ney phir khayee Rani sey haar,

vijayee Rani aagey chal di, kiya Gwalior par adhikar.

Angrezon key mitra Scindia ney chhodi rajdhani thee,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

Vijay mili, par Angrezon ki phir sena ghir aayee thi,

Abkey General Smith sammukh tha, usney munhki khayee thi,

Kaana aur Mandra sakhiyan Rani key sangh aayee thi,

Yudh kshetra mein un dono ney bhari maar machayi thi.

par peechey Hughrose aa gaya, Hai! gheeri ab Rani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

To bhi Rani maar kaat kar chalti bani sainya key paar,

kintu saamney naala aaya, tha woh sankat visham apaar,

ghoda adaa, naya ghoda tha, itney mein aa gaye avaar,

Rani ek, shatru bahuterey, honey lagey vaar-par-var.

Ghayal hokar giri Sinhni, isey veer gati paani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi.

Rani gayee sidhaar chita ab uski divya sawaari thi,

mila tej se tej, tej ki woh sachchi adhikaari thi,

abhi umr kul teis ki thi, manuj nahin avtaari thi,

humko jeevit karney aayee ban Swatantrata-naree thi,

dikha gayee path, sikha gayee humko jo seekh sikhani thi,

Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,

Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi

"Jao Rani yaad Rakhengey yeh krutagna Bharatwasi,yeh tera balidaan jagavega Swatantrata avinasi,hovey chup itihaas, lagey sachchai ko chahey phansi,ho madmaati vijay, mitaa dey golon sey chahey Jhansi.Tera Smarak tu hi hogi, tu khud amit nishaani thi,Bundeley Harbolon key munh hamney suni kahani thi,Khoob ladi mardani woh to Jhansi wali Rani thi"

'Merry Christmas'

All those amazing dreams

And now the stillness of this place

Here my life will start anew

And time be measured from this day

This was not the plan

Not here, not in this humble shed

That somehow seems so perfect today.

Its only a sweet celestial irony

that my faith decorating this wish tree.

we all know that hez coming,

santa's coming.

Whatever may lies ahead

i know

The hand of God must have its way

so i am juss wishing, dreaming, praying.

& with loads of love

i am wishing you all too

A 'Merry Christmas' & 'Happy New Year'!!!!!!!

"SPORTS" n " 2008"

Abhinav Bindra Wins Beijing 2008 Olympic GOLD Medal in the 10-meter Air Rifle

Beijing Olympics 2008 Medals



Kumar Vijender Wins Beijing 2008 Olympic Bronze Medal In Boxing

Sushil Kumar Wins Beijing 2008 Olympic Bronze Medal In Wrestling

Saina Nehwal won the World junior badminton championship 2008

Viswanathan Anand wins World Chess Championship 2008

Pankaj Advani wins World billiards double 2008

India win under-19 World Cup

India won ODI CB Series against Australia

India won Border-Gavaskar Trophy by 2-0

India won the ODI series against England

My hearty congratulations to all these big ppl....Great Achievement's!!!!!!!