"Unforgettable School Days" ---->I

My first step(Nursery class)

juss a 4yr old grl who entered in this horrifying world of studies..i studied nursery twice(simply bcos i chnged my school in mid of first nursery.hehe.nthg else) . Today i nly remember that v used to sing n dance on a song "A,B,C.....".but my fav nursery rhyme ws "twinkle twinkle little star" n aftr dat "ringa ringa roses".. wel even today i realy owe my gud hand writing to that school only bcos they used to gv loll of cursive writing buks in homework. n ya there i learned classical dance too..i stil wonder juss a 4 yr old n classical dance...heheh.arey juss a few first steps n abhi bhi vahi aata hai...

My Second step (primary classes)

as i did twice my nursery so no LKJ..UKG for me ...i directly got d admission in first class.n that too without much hard work.i stil remember that test.my teacher simply aksed me to ryt dwn my name....but me..wt u xpect?? definitely mujhe nhi aata tha.Then she said ok ryt BUS..n me "no mam".den she juss asked me to ryt 1,2,3..heheh oh god!finaly i manged to ryt smthng.wtever but i got d admission hehhe..

wel during that tym of 1st to 5th class i used to b vry quiet prsn..i think most of d tym my class teacher(my fav teacher til now Santosh mam) used to say "shez vry disciplined grl,gud in studies,vry vry quiet..."...heheh n generally my father used to say only one thng.."oho she never studies at home".i kno this is not her best..n result of such statements, in al my report cards i used to get "can do better" hehhe...dis ws d only tym in my lyf when i scored in 80's n 90's...aftr that..hehhe...4get it...

wel everything ws gud bout dis tym...i got evrythng here...no tension,lollz of fun,gud marks even in mathematics too,lolz of frnds,teachers love...evrythng :):)

r U oK ????

R u ok???? ya ya me fine!!!!what bout U????

wow so gud...so easy to say...but tel me hw mny times u realy meant that u r fine?????hmm..even not 10 times out of hundred.ok tel me hw mny times u hv said i am not fine.i think this time u vil say even not 5 times out of hundred.so mathematics show 85 times v lie bout urself.don worry i am too wid u..i am not an xception

wow!!!! but y?? y??y??

i knw definetly v cant..trust me v cant..bcos v r coward..realy.v vil not say this even if v r burning wid emotions,suffering frm lozz of pain,missing the most important thng of lyf.shit man realy shit.wen it cums to one glass of juice v immediately say hey chnge dis its bitter in taste,even bout success n failure v can say ya man i did it finaly..only i knw hw i managed.

but but...wen it cums to emotions,feelings,relationships.ya i knw bcos of fear,v don say a single word.but but...........

y cant v win it??

y v alwaz pretend that nthng effects us

y v alwaz pretend that v vry strong..even wen its not true

y v alwaz smile???

y v cant say that hey it hurts

y v cant say i never expected this from u

y v juss hold r tears in eyes???

y v leave things on r destiny??

y v strt luving wtever cums to us???

y ppl say tough ppl alwaz last not tough time

y v live in illusions????

y all dis nonsense???

y v luv this feeling that nobody knws bout r pain...v r vry cool...thngs cums n go but v remain solid like rock....

y v luv this superiority that v came out the hell widout nebody's help

y don v accept???

y don v simply say::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::::

i am hurt

i am in pain

i am crying

i am not able to handle it

simply

"I AM NOT FINE"

i knw al dis but i never say that i am not fine

Yipee....Today is My day :):):):)

HAPPY CHILDREN'S DAY TO ALL


Ring-a-ring-a-roses,
A pocket full of posies;

ashes! ashes!
we all fall down.

Ring a ring a Rosie,

A bottle full of posie,

All the girls in our town

Ring for little Josie.

A ring, a ring o' roses,

A pocket full o’posies-

Atch chew! atch chew!

Ring-a-ring-a-roses,

yeahhhh....My poor English

Today is Children day so i juss thought to share dis...Wel frnds today m gonna tel u bout my xceptional love for english....bcos my english is mindblowing trust me.n even u also can figure out vry easily bcos u can find 100s of gramatical mistakes on my blog.yeah but i hardly care.its my blog so i can rite even in french or german also...but rite now m telling u about my some funny xperience wid it..

PULL or PUSH
heheh..sounding funny even frm d title..push or pull..plz m not plaining ne game here..this incident is bout wen i ws in 6th class...so chhhoti si na..i knw i knw..wel u knw dere ws a chapter in science dats related to MOTION.so dat ws d 1st day of dat chp...my teacher juss called me up n said dear push d chair(actualy she ws trying to xplain d relation btw motion n force).n me such a big dumboo who ws so much confused btw pull n push juss strtd pulling d chair..hehhe...n evrbody strts laughing in d class...dat ws so embarassing..realy

Awesome
wel now u say wts related to dis word...wel ppl vil not belive dere ws a tym wen i realy don knw hw to spel it correctly..i alwaz asumed dat it spels like "osam".n even i nvr tried to chk dis into d dictionary.but wen i cum to knw bout da speling of dis word i ws like shit i m realy a big tym fool....i seriously don knw nethng...

Tc
ya ya now u vil say its take care...i too knw dis..but u knw till my 1st sem i realy had no idea about it..i mean once wt realy happnd....i got a msg frm my frnd n in d end "tc" ws written dere.wen i read d msg.i ws confused.tc means wt??.i mean surely its a short form of sm word but kiska??so i tried al my intelligence.but i ws not able to guessd it.n i ws in such a bad mood...i ws busy in thinking,wt he think of himself ?? hw dared he to write al dis nonsense?? hehhehe..srsly but later on wen i cum to knw bout d ful form....i ws laughing like a mad prsn...

so frnds now u kwn hw gud m in english so plz spare me for my bad english on my blog...

SOURAV GANGULY IS “THE MONARCH OF INDIAN CRICKET”

GOOD BYE "DADA" FIRST TEST MATCH

WORLD CUP 2003

India won Border-Gavaskar Trophy by 2-0

LAST TEST MATCH OF DADA....LAST FEW MOMENTS

LAST TIME AGAIN IN HIS OWN STYLE

we will miss u dada

alwaz..with lozz of love n admiration!!!

silence

I admire !

If i talk bout indian cricket team den definetly without a second thought i will take Sourav ganguly n Rahul dravid's name.....bcos i realy admire them lol n that to for different reasons..smtyms ppl affect ur lyf n smtyms u wanted to b like smone.even smtyms u juss adore ppl without any reason,may b bcos ur heart says...u see smthng gud or bad in dem....


wel rite now m talking bout sourav ganguly.what shld i say.i think hez beyond words.wel kwn for his fighting skills which i completely adore.when he announced that he would retire after the four-Test series against Australia.my first reaction was y hez going??? but aftr smtym i realy felt that its a gud decision.rite now hez playing his last series.
i hope he will end his career in a terrific way by scoring a couple of good knocks.i juss wanna wish him lol of luck for his future.n a final gud bye from al his fan's side. Three cheers for him!!!!

i think any prsn can take lol of inspiration frm his lyf..n y i like him so much??wel if i realy tel the truth den ganguly n me share a same success n failure graph.. although m juss n ordinary gal n hez an ex indian captain...so dere is no comparison....n even i cant think of dat..but i too tasted d success n failure in a vry similar fashion...dat bad phase of my lyf realy taught me a big lesson.. the journey frm failure to success realy gvn me lozz of strength.. i was alwaz a tough prsn but dat realy made me hard stone frm inside.

i nvr allowed any one to understand al dis..n even i don want dat any body try to do dat also.i think smwhr al dese things help you see the clear picture of urself,othrs n situation.now if ever my sister ask hw u did it??? i hve never seen u crying??? hw u hve taken al dis?? n i juss say even i don knw dear bcos as ppl say u only cum to knw about ur strength wen u don left wid ne option n being strong is ur only option.i realy learned during such time its important to forget past mistakes.forget failures.forget about everything except wt you're going to do now. i think v r responsible for wt v r & wtever v wish ourself to b,v hve the power to make ourself. evrybody say wtever v wish to b in the future,can b produced by r own present actions so we shld to knw how to "ACT"

i realy love few line about failure..
failure doesn't mean u r a failure...it does mean u haven't succeded yet
failure doesn't mean u hve accomplished nethng...
it does mean u hve learned smthng
failure doesn't mean u shld gv up... it does mean u try harder
yes dats true i fear frm mny thngs in lyf but now i don hve any fear frm faliure's.may b bcos now i knw hw to handle it. now its not new for me.now i knw smtyms right thngs go wrong.n we are the only ones who can bring chnges again.so its juss a part of lyf..
i believe in one thing...
"The only time you don't fail is the last time you try anything'
and trust me it works

Crap...ya crap

Today I am writing bout smthng which is useless..n for dat v generaly use the word CRAP
wel I think v use dis word vry often..but normaly I wonder is dis realy true.???i mean realy dere r thngs vich r crap???
Hello al dis is crap
Wt u said???
Oh realy..i don think so…al dis is crap..
Oh cumon wtever I said ws juss crap…
U knw normaly v use dese lines juss to make othr prsn realize dat wtever r the thngs ,dey don posses ne importance. but realy???i don think so….bcos nthg in dis world is crap..nthg…
Even if its wrong bout us..
Its not dat wt v meant
Its not dat wt othr prsn assumed
Wtever v said has nthg real
smthng can b crap for us but for othr prsn it may b not..
normaly v say mny important thngs like dis nly n in d end v juss mention dis word CRAP…nthg serious…
V generally ignore d facts,v try to neturalize d matter by saying dis…
V simply don wanna accept few thngs..dats it..nthg else…
i don knw is realy thngs r crap???...i don knw...see if by chance any prsn read dis post den m sure he/she will find it crap but for me it is not....

Sometimes right things go wrong

when Sometimes i am alone
i start feeling sad,
but i never allowed sadness to overcome my happiness.

when Sometimes i left with no options
i start losing my hope,
but i never allowed her to leave me for forever.

when Sometimes i blame my destiny
i start ignoring many questions,
but i never stop her to question me again and again.

when Sometimes my beliefs laugh at me
i start questioning my silence,
but i never doubt on her power to make me believe again.

when Sometimes nothing affects me
i start hiding my tears in eyes
but i never allowed them to shattered me completely

bcos in life
sometimes we fail again & again
sometimes we loose everything

so what????
I am sensing that something wrong is going to happen
i know,i will be back on right track again
i know,i will definitely see the new change again
bcos I am the only one who will bring this change again
bcos its just a passing phase of life
so what????
sometimes right things go wrong

Aimless...realy???

I don knw y m writing al dis today..may b bcos smwhr I wanna take it out..as v say generally Reality seems to b blurred wen v don see ourself through r eyes.That’s what happens if v live r entire life through other people’s viewpoint.v spend d days and nights doing thngs right.most of d time v r busy answering many ques..
where do i want to end up?

will i have the job that makes me happy?

will i be able to label myself successful?

are they really proud of me?

am i enough to make him happy?

u knw wen v don left wid any ans,v juss try to avoid questions.v silence the soul too.But what bout inside? Are v proud of who v are? Do v like what v see inside? What is inside us? Who is the real v?

Again mny questions..wel if i talk bout any gal den its her duty to b her parent's reflection,b her in-laws reflection,b her husband's reflection..i think i too try to do smthng like dis..if I talk bout myself den m also not an xception.I don hve ne complaints on living lyf acc to sm1 else’s point of view…i realy appreciate whatever I hv got…watevr ws decided for me was realy gud n watever i got was mor den wt I deserved.

but but smwhr I feel I nvr livd my dreams..n dat's not any1 else’s fault..its mine again bcos I nvr dreamed nethng as such.. i knw dis truth also..but stil at times i ask some ques..
So wat is realy gud ?? wat bout dat vich I nvr dreamed??vich I nvr lived??y i did so??y m like dis?? its my laziness??its my ignorance??or its dat i seriously don knw wat i wanna do??

i don knw what i am talking right now...its juss a thought...or u can say few question on me.