Y ???

Things doesn't effect me anymore now!!!
wow !! so easy na ..i mean how easily i said this thing to one of my colleague in the office...but if that was true then why when i was saying all this somewhere i felt that i am not saying the real truth ..talked with her for sometime and now .....

I know sometimes little Ignorance can harm us lot and can give life time experience too :)
just don't know..why i am feeling as if this is true..why after a long time things again becoming difficult for me..i was the expert of handling problems..i was the expert of making fool not only others but to myself too that things doesn't effect me so much..then why somewhere i am doubting on my abilities..why while talking with her i was reminded by myself that dear!! you are ignoring something..you are tyring hard to be away from it..you are struggling with yourself..even this much that its becoming difficult for you identify the right behaviour for yourself..you are mixing everything and somewhere things are not in your control  :)


i know..there is something which i cant avoid..which i cant ignore...which are effecting me...may be bcos after a long time i am into a situation where everyday i am facing it !!!
i know i will be out of it soon but still...till the time i am in..till the time its killing me...

The most intrsng thing is that i don't know the reason's of it too....:(:(

why its bothering me so much?
why its effecting me so much?
why i am not able to win over it?
why i am somewhere feeling that the more i try the more i loose
why i am just not in control of myself?
why and whats in that?? i mean what ?why its becoming so important for me..?
why the hell i am not able to pull it out of my space??why why why.....